Well, Friday has finally arrived so it is a night out with Dan. I wish I could think of something exciting for us to do, but I feel like I'm about as exciting as going to the dentist. I need to get my mind firing on all of the cylinders again, but I don't push myself enough. Now I feel like I'm getting kind of a headcold, which is annoying. I'm also afraid to put on the dress I got to wear to a wedding tomorrow because it's not going to look like I think that it should. I suppose those types of thoughts are somewhat vain and right now I feel very unsure of myself.
Yesterday we ventured down to AU again and had a nice supper with Isaac, Graham, Caleb and Jared. I think they are planning to go downtown Indy this evening and talk with the homeless people that might be out and about. They thought they might try to have supper with them. I would imagine the conversations could be pretty interesting.
Now I believe I will clean the living room, hit the shower and see what happens the rest of tonight.
Peace and hope to all -
JAH
Friday, October 20, 2006
Monday, October 16, 2006
It's A Monday
Today was definitely a Monday kind of day. When I woke up I felt like I hadn't slept yet and then when I got to work, there was already work waiting for me. Then someone called in sick, etc., etc... Oh well, I guess in the big picture of life, these little inconveniences probably aren't such a big deal. At least I kept trying to tell myself that as the day went on.
I don't know if it is still the empty nest syndrome or what, but every now and then, bursting in to tears would seem like an easy thing to do and I have no idea why. I hate that. Maybe it is just my age more than the nest. I do think I definitely need to get back into the treadmill routine and out of the fattening foods routine. I think that does impact one's mood and overall energy level. Dan and I both got on the ole t-mill yesterday, so hopefully we can keep at each other to keep it up.
Tomorrow we are going to AU to hear Shane Claiborne speak and I am looking forward to that. I haven't finished his book Irresistable Revolution quite yet, but I'm more than half way through it. It is very convicting and challenging. Sometimes I think I rationalize my attitude/actions (or lack thereof) way too much. I don't think Jesus wants us to be observers - he wants us to be participants. It isn't that I'm not involved in church, but sometimes I feel like I have lost some of my ability to relate to those people who do not choose to be followers of Christ. Or...maybe the problem is, that I have become too much like them and thus feel no need to relate?? I'm not sure.
Well, it is almost 4 pm and the treadmill is still at a standstill.
Keep the hope alive-
JAH
I don't know if it is still the empty nest syndrome or what, but every now and then, bursting in to tears would seem like an easy thing to do and I have no idea why. I hate that. Maybe it is just my age more than the nest. I do think I definitely need to get back into the treadmill routine and out of the fattening foods routine. I think that does impact one's mood and overall energy level. Dan and I both got on the ole t-mill yesterday, so hopefully we can keep at each other to keep it up.
Tomorrow we are going to AU to hear Shane Claiborne speak and I am looking forward to that. I haven't finished his book Irresistable Revolution quite yet, but I'm more than half way through it. It is very convicting and challenging. Sometimes I think I rationalize my attitude/actions (or lack thereof) way too much. I don't think Jesus wants us to be observers - he wants us to be participants. It isn't that I'm not involved in church, but sometimes I feel like I have lost some of my ability to relate to those people who do not choose to be followers of Christ. Or...maybe the problem is, that I have become too much like them and thus feel no need to relate?? I'm not sure.
Well, it is almost 4 pm and the treadmill is still at a standstill.
Keep the hope alive-
JAH
Saturday, October 14, 2006
How does this go???
It took me awhile, but I finally got to the screen where a person can write on this crazy thing. Of course, now that I'm here, I'm not really sure what to write. I read through my old posts and things seem so much different now.
Carrie and Isaac are both off to school. Carrie in her last year of college - Isaac in his first. Even as I write that, I can hardly believe that it is true. Seeing them take off in to the world out there is a very strange - although exciting - feeling. Even as I write, Isaac is off to Washington DC for a conference of some sort. The horizon is expanding.
I thought I would take some time and start writing thoughts down again, but as usual, my mind is kind of a jumble. It seems there is so much to think about and process through, but I just kind of feel small like my dog most of the time. Or sometimes, as I have told Dan, I feel like I'm running through jello like in those crazy dreams where you keep running but never seem to get anywhere. Of course, I'm not sure where I'm trying to go, so what is a person to do.
I have been reading more. I finished one book and have started on another. Both of which were different in their settings, but but quite challenging. They have me feeling distant from much of what I think life should probably be like for those of us who are followers of Christ. (I am beginning to think the word "Christian" has been misued to the point that it has no meaning.) Dan and I talk about that a lot. What is our part? Do we make it too hard to figure out? Do we just think about it too much? How does this go???
Anyway, maybe as I make an attempt at writing some of these things down, the pieces of life's puzzle will get put together in the right way and the picture will end up looking pretty good. There are some things I feel like I do know: Following Christ is always the best way even though it sometimes gets confusing; I have been blessed with a wonderful husband whom I love and get to go through this life with; our kids are the greatest despite those times we wish we would have done things differently; the church is still responsible to the world - not the other way around. These things I do know.
Be radical in the hope -
JAH
Carrie and Isaac are both off to school. Carrie in her last year of college - Isaac in his first. Even as I write that, I can hardly believe that it is true. Seeing them take off in to the world out there is a very strange - although exciting - feeling. Even as I write, Isaac is off to Washington DC for a conference of some sort. The horizon is expanding.
I thought I would take some time and start writing thoughts down again, but as usual, my mind is kind of a jumble. It seems there is so much to think about and process through, but I just kind of feel small like my dog most of the time. Or sometimes, as I have told Dan, I feel like I'm running through jello like in those crazy dreams where you keep running but never seem to get anywhere. Of course, I'm not sure where I'm trying to go, so what is a person to do.
I have been reading more. I finished one book and have started on another. Both of which were different in their settings, but but quite challenging. They have me feeling distant from much of what I think life should probably be like for those of us who are followers of Christ. (I am beginning to think the word "Christian" has been misued to the point that it has no meaning.) Dan and I talk about that a lot. What is our part? Do we make it too hard to figure out? Do we just think about it too much? How does this go???
Anyway, maybe as I make an attempt at writing some of these things down, the pieces of life's puzzle will get put together in the right way and the picture will end up looking pretty good. There are some things I feel like I do know: Following Christ is always the best way even though it sometimes gets confusing; I have been blessed with a wonderful husband whom I love and get to go through this life with; our kids are the greatest despite those times we wish we would have done things differently; the church is still responsible to the world - not the other way around. These things I do know.
Be radical in the hope -
JAH
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