How does this go???

It took me awhile, but I finally got to the screen where a person can write on this crazy thing. Of course, now that I'm here, I'm not really sure what to write. I read through my old posts and things seem so much different now.


Carrie and Isaac are both off to school. Carrie in her last year of college - Isaac in his first. Even as I write that, I can hardly believe that it is true. Seeing them take off in to the world out there is a very strange - although exciting - feeling. Even as I write, Isaac is off to Washington DC for a conference of some sort. The horizon is expanding.

I thought I would take some time and start writing thoughts down again, but as usual, my mind is kind of a jumble. It seems there is so much to think about and process through, but I just kind of feel small like my dog most of the time. Or sometimes, as I have told Dan, I feel like I'm running through jello like in those crazy dreams where you keep running but never seem to get anywhere. Of course, I'm not sure where I'm trying to go, so what is a person to do.

I have been reading more. I finished one book and have started on another. Both of which were different in their settings, but but quite challenging. They have me feeling distant from much of what I think life should probably be like for those of us who are followers of Christ. (I am beginning to think the word "Christian" has been misued to the point that it has no meaning.) Dan and I talk about that a lot. What is our part? Do we make it too hard to figure out? Do we just think about it too much? How does this go???

Anyway, maybe as I make an attempt at writing some of these things down, the pieces of life's puzzle will get put together in the right way and the picture will end up looking pretty good. There are some things I feel like I do know: Following Christ is always the best way even though it sometimes gets confusing; I have been blessed with a wonderful husband whom I love and get to go through this life with; our kids are the greatest despite those times we wish we would have done things differently; the church is still responsible to the world - not the other way around. These things I do know.

Be radical in the hope -
JAH