The Ladder

Sometimes I wonder if I am climbing up a ladder or going down a ladder. On the one hand, I still feel like I am climbing a ladder of sorts. You know, I am still learning new things - like using this laptop - that there are still new adventures and experiences to be had. Within one week, our son turned 18, he graduated from high school, and our daughter turned 21. Sometimes that makes me feel like I'm going down the ladder. The next generation is taking their place. I am probably going to need to admit that I am at middle age.

Maybe instead of going down a ladder, I should think of it as switching to a different ladder. I guess in some ways our experiences and adventures are going to change. Our roles are going to change. But as I have often said to others and I must now say to myself, change is not a bad word. Change can be a good thing. A new thing. I cannot wait to see where life takes our kids. They are really great kids. They think and have great ideas. They don't always follow the crowd. They have opinions and they share them with us and with others. In some ways, they are both wise beyond their years and have taught us many things. I want to take it all in as they make their way in this crazy world. I hope they can experience many great things and that they will both find great people to share them with.

I will admit, there are many mixed emotions as you see your children becoming less dependent on you, but a great deal of satisfaction can come as you see them make choices, but still ask for advice every now and then.

So, I guess that is it. I am not going down a ladder, but I am still on a journey. I guess ladders have an ending, but roads can go on for a long time. I like this road and have been so blessed with a great husband and great kids to share it with.

Thank you Lord for this life. Help me to enjoy each day and not worry about the curves and hills in the road. I don't want to be complacent about this life. Remind me of all the joy that has been and will be in my life because of You and Your Love for us. Keep me in Your Radical Hope.

JAH